what a rant.

jesus.
you'd think for once i wouldn't be the backup friend.
or maybe i have a stamp on my head labeling me that.
it just irritates me when people act like i'm disposable.
when did i become that way?
i never put up a sign allowing this to happen.
and why is it all the people i considered close fucking up
my life?
i mean, when's the last time we ever had
ANYTHING IN PRIVATE?!

i rant like a little bitch all the time.
but this is getting ridiculous.

do i even have a fuckin' real friend anymore?
or do i have the wrong definition of friend?!
i can't even tell at this point!

this is a whole lot of steam.
forget these bitches.
i'm out.

god, i can't believe i have to wait a whole year
for college.

pictures are love.

i love my room.
and taking photos.
especially of the weird things.
p.s., that is the number sixty-nine

i don't know when or why i got interested in fashion.
it's amazing.
it's like a clash of art thrown into reality.
quite beautiful.

stars. in the sky.
this was supposed to be a gift for a friend.
too bad i didn't have enough time to finish it...
plus i don't really like that person...

i love traveling.
so much fun.
i'm interested in europe especially.
but really anywhere with good food and culture.

i loved going to spain.
barcelona, baby.

comin' for you, florida.
hp convention.
orlando.
friends.
these are all hopefullys...

this movie rules.
don't you deny...
i love this so much.
it gives me the reason to why i must skip school sometimes.
love.
love.
love.
<3

random procrastination thoughts

no photos.
in my head, photos pop in and out.
they don't stay there where you can look back.
since you're always looking back
and you're always looking forward.
never really looking right in front of you...
yeah, i wouldn't want to get lost in my brain either.

i lost elections.
i felt like utter shit.
i dyed my hair.
i was worried about what others would think.
i went to prom.
i loved prom.

"high school is the best years of your life."

well, when does it get epic?

i mean, i love my school and all, but sometimes i wonder if i made the right decision for anything.
all the time i wonder whether i was meant for any or none of this.
it depresses me a bit.

god, i hate procrastinating thoughts.

on a brighter note,
i love victorious.
dan schneider does it again.
brilliance.
i absolutely love ariana grande.
such a fitting last name.
amazingly this group has diversity
HUZZAH.
(except no asian :/
boo.
DOES ANY NICK OR DISNEY SHOW
HAVE AN ASIAN?
hudgens doesn't count. "she looks like a
mexican!")

i think that's it.
oh, and i really want to watch kick-ass again.

so tired, i might cry.

so tired.
so, so very tired.
i've got so much to do with so little time.

watched kick-ass.
makes me love mintz and johnson even more.
hit girl = bad ass all by herself.
i will be buying this movie.
almost finished with first generation skins.
going to get back into the vampire diaries.
ugly betty ended. boo, you abc whores.
taming of the shrew is over. kinda sad.
i will miss that mustache.
tests. memorization. papers.
FUCK.
SCHOOL ELECTIONS.
I'm running for ASB Spirit Officer.
And I'm about to cry.
I'm pretty outgoing, but I'm just so tired.
At this point, I just want to get it over with.
I fucking hate losing.
And I want this so bad.
So, so bad.
I know my candidate may want it just as bad.
But I seriously will cry either way.
Win or lose.
God, I seriously want to win so bad.
I need to get my stupid posters done.

"Stefanie, you manwhore."

...i shouldn't be up this late.

hey logan!
you're so fine! you're so fine, now be just mine! hey logan! hey, hey! hey logan!

no seriously, betch. stop getting more famous. the last thing i need to hear is someone saying that selena gomez thinks you're the next big thing...especially when it's coming from a disney star
good things about logan getting recognizably famous:

• more photo shoots!
• he's happier (i think...)
• more interviews!
• there's a contest where you can be his prom date
  
• people actually know him

bad things about logan getting recognizably famous:

• all people say is "percy jackson"
• i and others had to watch him as percy jackson
• other people are fawning over him
• annoying people i dislike are talking about him
  
• he's in magazines like "BOP" and that other stupid shit.
• there's a contest where you can be his prom date (why don't you just make out with miley cyrus? or kill yourself. actually, go make out with that crazy shit because it's worse than killing yourself! gah!)
• he's becoming more of an epic fail that i just want to punch in the face and say, hey! knock it the fuck off!
  
• people actually know him

at least no one really knows josh hutcherson too well...
DANCE COMPANY, BITCHES.
Three dances.
Heartbreaker. The Devil's Song - (Party in the USA). Sorry Sorry.
Pretty bamf.
...They are asking for it.
Seriously, many of this year's freshmen are asking for a beatdown. I will be Stefanie Beat-Freshies-Down. For shizzle. They seriously need to stop talking shit - seriously, lower rank. I cannot wait for senior year to give them a swift kick in the ass if they haven't changed by then. Hopefully I will get a decent freshman next year...Somehow I doubt it, though.

I need a break from school. But not summer.
I'm so stressed out with school, life, college, summer, and all that shiz. You'd think I'd be ready for summer! It's like summer's no longer fun, anymore. (With the exception I have for being excited for A VERY POTTER SEQUEL! CAN I GET A WHAT WHAT!) It's me working and wanting to get sleep or party or be a regular teen.
God, I want a seriously regular life.
And I wish I had never really gotten into fashion...

Sucks to be middle class wanting so much more.
I'm half ass complaining and half ass just ranting. I wish I could say I wasn't complaining but I totally am. TOTALLY. COMPLAINING. Like my mom keeps on saying: I really need to get a high paying job to support my fuckin' lifestyle.

last note, i promise.
ugly betty's almost over! so sad! i feel like it's been with me forever!
i'm going to miss all the characters, especially amanda! gawd, i just can't help but love her the most, haha. she's pretty stylish, not gonna lie. i especially loved her outfit in the scene displayed above (i couldn't find a picture with the shoes she was wearing for that episode, and i loved those shoes!) stupid abc. go punch yourself for making a big mistake!

pay attention...

seriously.

it wouldn't kill sophomores and underclassmen to
this is not your school.
you do not own it.
bitch, move, GETOUTOFTHEWAY!

this is one of the most annoying things of my school. because of the fact that my school is so small and everyone "gets along," underclassmen think it's alright for them to act like seniors and shit. no, you cannot wear sweatpants under your school skirt. no, you cannot act like you own the hall. no, you cannot act like you're the shit. seriously, you're not. act like what you are.
bottom of the chain, bitches.

uuugh, i don't hate all of them but it's like...i don't even know how to explain it. it just annoys me. :/

winter ball sucked, too.
i'll upload my outfit later cause it was super duper cute : D
working on my independent art projects....
ELEPHANT CHARCOAL! YAYAYAYAYAY!

and i'm currently working on my collage/wallpaper with all my famous celebrities.
-logan lerman
-josh hutcherson
-danielle panabaker
- saoirse ronan
-david henrie
basically i'm just following a tutorial, though.

puerto rico project.
it shall be bomb.
god, if i actually work on it.

fuuuuuuck, my grades are so awkardly....bad/awkward.
progress reports were a wake up call.

junior retreat this week.
oh-my-fuckin-god.
i'm so....undescribable right now.
i'm like a ball of emotions.


whoa whoa whoa! i don't know about y'all, but we gonna run this town tomorrow night!

ilu nikki

en espanol, por favor.

Fuck.

I have been sick for the past three days. Which in my school terms it means a week or maybe a bit more. That's one of the things I dislike about my school. As brilliant and great as the education is, if you only miss one day, it screws your entire life up. You have to scramble to fix everything even though you know it's most likely going to take you about three more days to adjust. (Well, that's how I feel, anyways. )

I'm going to Portland on the weekend because of my mom's trip. No sale's tax.
Brilliant.
Most likely I'm going to be getting new rain boots/jacket because I really need it with the current weather. Too rainy. Where's the snow? We missed snow. Let's have some, jaja?

Oh yes! Yes!
It's magnificent!
So I just realized that Nylon as well as TeenVogue has featured my two favorite boys, Josh Hutcherson and Logan Lerman. I curently only subscribe to those magazines, hence my excitement. Josh was featured in TeenVogue's Young Hollywood (Taylor Lautner cover) and in Nylon MEN (Zac Efron cover; I believe the October 2009? ). (I really should figure out the actual issue. Haha) Logan was featured in Nylon's Yong Hollywood (Olivia Thirby and Kat Dennings cover) and TeenVogue's February 2010 (Jessica Szohr cover). [I'd love to include Rupert Grint/Aaron Johnson/a few others but I have no idea whether they've been covered by both magazines yet.] Anyways, good job to them!

On another note...
I really need to update my music with:

1. Choir Music
2. Dance Company music
3. "We Are Golden" - MIKA

Majority is school. Haha.
Gawd, I feel sick. I hate school. Right now, anyways.